Here is me

Well, starting this blog and I am not exactly sure what I should be saying here. Kinda feels silly at first, but I guess I will get used to it. I am trying to figure out what the whole life thing is and what it is all about. Here are some things I hope to find answers to and am pondering at the time:
*How do you make others happy but don't compromise yourself in the meantime.
*How do you change yourself if you don't like something. I know how to change how I eat, but how do I change
how I feel?
*Do others have the same hard time at all of this as I do?

*Why am I not happy?

*How do I get happy or am I supposed to be? Maybe no one is really happy and I have too high of expectations?


I am sure I will come up with others but in the meantime I am going to introduce myself.

I am a 37 year old woman living in Portland Oregon. I am a wife and a mother. I have 3 kids. An 18 year old girl who just graduated from high school and will be starting college soon. A 13 year old boy who is in the 8th grade. A 9 year old girl in the 4th grade. My husband is working on becoming a Life Coach and has lived in Portland all of his adult life. I just moved here 5 years ago from McMinnville Oregon when we met and got married.
I am a nurse and I don't love it. I don't even like it much. I went to school to help people. No, I really did. I just adored the idea. I unfortunately don't seem to do much of that at all. I seem to do alot of paperwork and spend most of my day making the state happy. (or trying to anyway but personally, I think it is impossible.)

I should say this is my second marriage since I think alot of my problems come from my first one. At least that is what I am blaming it on.

What else shall I say about myself? I am not sure, I guess more will come out soon. Maybe I will just keep adding on to this. We will see. It is my blog, right? I can do what I want to do, right??